I will just say, that some days, most days, suck. Today is one of those days. I keep trying, to work this out, i keep trying to understand, and make sense of all of this. I am trying to plan for the future. I have decisions to make, that i dont want to have to make right now. I should be about 18 weeks pregnant now, and instead I am having to decide what i will use for birth control, until i am ready to make even bigger decisions. Who would have thought that thinking about birth control could be so painful.
I am just hurting today. I miss my baby.